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Monday, October 13, 2008

what happens when....

TRUST>>>> GONE!

SECURITY>>>> GONE!

PASSION>>>>GONE!

HAPPINESS>>>>GONE!

LOVE>>>> ????

what do i do when it has come down to this point... i'm holding on to a string that's gonna snap any moment... i dont know what to do next... i'm just so tired of everything... i told myself to look on the bright side, but what bright side is there to look at now....

people always say there is a fine line between love and hate... now i understand what they mean... now i know that i cannot cry in his shoulder or show him how hurt i am inside cause he wont understand... i know it's not his fault... he's just like that.... i've always tried to help him each time i can... but he just finds that i'm not doing enough... does my face just write words like "lie to me"... why now?? i thought i could trust u... nowadays no matter how hurt i am inside i cannot show him, cause he wont be able to make it any better... the hurt has been done...

singing has always been my passion and i sing when i'm happy... but today i heard something so hurtful and never thought it would come from him.... but it did... i felt like bursting out in tears but i know i could not... cause i know he wont make it better... and then, while going home, i found out he lied to me about something... i was cursing inside why did i have to find out... i'd rather not know and just lie to myself... the feeling of that, really killed me... but i promise myself that i'll keep smiling no matter what.... he didnt cheat on me or anything, but the lie just hurt as much... i guess they're just all the same.... it still hurts...so should i just walk away now?? at least that's what i'm doing...

he says he loves me... but why all those words and lie... but he still thinks he's not in the wrong... maybe it is my fault... a girl like me... what do i expect?? maybe i caused him to be like that... and i have hurt him before too... so i'm not much better... i'm probably just as bad....

dont get me wrong, he can be really nice to me... and he's a nice guy... but i think it's just that fate brought us together and now it's bringing us apart... no one's fault....

i'm not going to cry... i'm going to stay strong and smile.... cause yuxi told me" dont cry cause it's ended but smile cause it happened..." i'm going to do just that....

he's my hurt, he's my pain, he's my tears, yet, he's my fairytale, he's my miracle, he's my joy and most of all he's still my treasure...

It was a beautiful dream.... i just have to wake up now..... i'll always remember how happy i was the day i lost my heart to u...

receive, set, spike;

5:16 AM

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