



Today i saw eugene and many many other guys going up to the sky garden near our school... andy and i walked pass him... he saw andy and said "eh! want join not?" at first i didnt know what they were going there to do... then, andy told me and i realised... i dont understand why eugene is doing this... he wasnt like this before... or maybe i just didnt know him well enough at all... i thought he was someone who wouldnt go with the crowd i thought he knew what he should and should not do... but i guess i was wrong.. i just felt like telling him to stop.. but i know i dont have the rights to say anything now... i hope someone would just go and lead him back to who he used to be.... he's a good brother, a filial son and grandson, a good friend... i hope he knows what he's doing now...
on the other hand, i'm glad andy's not like that.. he has his priorities right... so i dont really have to worry for him... expect sometimes... andy's right, each time after we have a quarrel, we end up loving each more... that's quite scary actually..but both of us agreed we only have one life, so we'll make the best out of it... there's nothing to lose anyway... andy hasnt given up on me despite all the things i have done.. i'm really very touched by that... when i tell him i want to give up, he will just support me and hold me strong... making sure i dont give up too. he rather take up all the responsibility than losing me... i'm really lost for words... the thing that held me back from walking away from him today was cause i knew i still loved him... he's really my pillar of support...though there are things that i cant say out to him... but i know he's trying his best and we'll both learn to slowly give and take....
i realise in my life there are 2 people that really care alot for me... i'm really thankful for... they are keiko and guowei... today at my lowest point, they encouraged me and gave me a reason to smile... those two are really friends that i will never let go of and i will always remember them... i love them!!!!!!!!