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Tuesday, July 15, 2008

HELLO PEOPL! i've decided to use this blog again because i think it's nice and since i've left it there untouched for a million years, i shall use it again now...

reading through my previous posts really brought back so many memories... to the times where everything was so happy and pure... so few worries and so many smiles... i really miss those times...

While i was reading through my previous posts, i saw this phrase " love is what we need, yet it's what we lack, that's why we like love songs...no matter you're in love now or out of it, whether you love him more or he loves you more, actually, to love or being loved is also happiness"

now i can say that this is true....The time eugene and i have spent together will always remain in my heart... when eugene and i broke up when we were in sec one... i prayed to God that i could just have one more day with him that he will love me for just one more day... but God already gave me so much more in the end... he gave me an extra 5 months and 4 days with him... 14 october 2007 to 18 march 2008... the times i spent with eugene is really amazing... i finally experienced what it was like to love and not care about what tomorrow brings... he made my dream come true and brought so much happiness... although there were tears, but each time, i want to love him more and keep him by my side... it's my selfishness that made me lose him in the end... i didnt give him the freedom he wanted, although in the end i let loose already but it was all too late... he couldnt take it anymore.... that's why we broke up... with him, i experienced a miracle in my life.... although we said to patch after o levels, but i knew from the beginning, i was forcing him to agree again and not giving him the freedom... so this time, i've decided to let go... after all, loving someone is making sure they're happy... i hope now his life is much better and less stressful with his riding, swimming, things he loves to do.... i just hope he knows how to take care of himself.... i know i cant be there to remind him to not ride too late, or to study more, or to drink more water, or dont do so many stunts with his bike, or to watch his health, or to rmb to feed the hamsters, or to eat more... so i hope his friends would do the reminding... no matter what happened, he's still a wonderful person in my heart.. i do not hate him.... his birthday is coming, 18th july... 3 more days... i know it was meant to be a happy day when i was still with him, i still planned of what to do for him.. but i guess it's not going to happen... so i'm just gonna keep to my promise to him and wish him happy birthday.... i really wish him well... i will never know of what could've been if we had not broken up, but all that is way too much for me to think of now... i still remember the warmth of his hug, the tender kisses, the sweet embrace, the promises, the things he has done for me and when the way he said "i love you dardar" to me... all good things have to come to an end one day and i hope he will be happy... i do regret being so tight on him.... but now, we all have to move on... despite the tears, the regrets, the heartaches... i've decided i've got to move on... and i wish him well.... he will always and forever have a place in my heart...

ever since andy came into my life, i've been a much happier person.... he managed to take a part of the sadness, a part of the pain away and gave me a reason to smile.... he's been so patient with me, even knowing that there are time which i think of eugene so much... i know it's hurt him so much... but he never fails to let out a smile and tell me "i love you"... and like the way he calls me in the middle of the day and tells me " i love u and i miss u"... despite the quarrels which happens once in a while, he makes me feel that with him around, i have a reason to smile... with him, i laugh so much at his jokes and the things he do to make me smile when i feel like killing me...at the time which i've fallen hard, he took my hand and brought me up.. making sure i'm not alone... always asking me, "does it make u happy? if it does, then i'll do it"... i'm really touched beyond words... i hope all these continues and it doesnt end up with the way it did with eugene...that's why i've decided to let loose and make sure that this time, will give him the freedom he wants... i'm not going to make the same mistake like i did with eugene... Our third month is coming upppp... so excitedddd................ i love u sweetie...

DEAR GOD, PLEASE PLEASE HEAL MY FATHER....PLEASE....

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